Last night, the Board vote on school closures and I have to say how very disappointed I with some of the Seattle Community. They were very disrespectful to the Board and the Superintendent. I am all for "Freedom of speech"....but how they were treated them was very unfair and tasteless. If this community, as a whole, is trying to show "our kids" how to speak up for themselves, they failed MISERABLY last night.
This was a "public" hearing and the Board wasn't able to conduct the meeting as they needed. There were many outburts, chants, and some acted like immature teenagers throwing tantrums!!
How embarrassing is it that you have shown our kids this is the way to express yourself ...Shame on you for not "representing" Seattle in a much better and respectful way.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
January 29, 2009 ~ Vote Day aka V-Day
It's 4:05pm and the tension has spiked so high, it's unbearable. At 6:00pm the Board will start proceeding to vote on school closures. Rally and protests are schedule to have by 4:30pm. Camara crews from different TV stations are lineup to have the first "breaking news" on the rallys and protesters.
I personally will be glad when the vote goes through. It's been a talked event since October and my head can't take much more "Which school, which program, whose failing, what's the testing scores....." I am NUMBERED and DATA OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am getting off now and making a low run to my truck to get the hell out of here!!!
I personally will be glad when the vote goes through. It's been a talked event since October and my head can't take much more "Which school, which program, whose failing, what's the testing scores....." I am NUMBERED and DATA OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am getting off now and making a low run to my truck to get the hell out of here!!!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
A message to Single Fabulous Ladies
As T.D. Jakes said :
"Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a Gold mine you are, doesn't mean you SHINE any less."
"Never allow someone to be your Priority,
While allowing yourself to be their Option"
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
The Lay-off Reality - Change in the workplace
Waking up this morning, I laid in bed, rubbing my eyes and forcing myself to get up for work. I repeat to myself the same thing that I have said to myself every morning...."I am thankful that I have a job to go to!" Driving in, I say this to myself a hundred times and think about positive things......thinks that will put me in a good mood. It didn't matter that it was snowing, temp was 32 degrees and bleak looking, I still looked at the day with some enthusaism......
But walking into the building, those good feelings were suck out of me like a vacuum....it's like a morgue around here. Co-workers are looking and greeting at each other with whispers of, "Who do you think is going to get laid off? or "Do you think it will be you?", instead of saying "Good morning, how is your morning?" or "Let's go for coffee"......
People rushing around like ants, working harder and more diligently than I had ever seen before. Is this a illusion to appear that "I am needed?", to appear to have too much work, and your so busy, so you won't be on the chopping block. No one is asking for help with their workload. It may appear that you can't do your job. People are working late and coming in on the weekends now, when 6 months ago, you couldn't say "Please stay late or come in this weekend", without getting a dirty look or a grumble.
The relaxed atomsphere here has been replaced with stress and tension, so thick, that you can cut it with a knife. Jan 30 is the vote on what schools will be closed and by Feb 4th, all central departments managers will inform those employees to be laid off, they are without a job.
This morning, while walking to the cafeteria, I started thinking about the a Seattletimes newspaper headline from last week....."UNEMPLOYMENT JUMPS" in big, black bold letters ran across the top of the page. Just those two words sends "fear" through at the building. People that always have a smile on their faces, are now walking around with frown lines and using "grunts" for "hellos"......Filling up my coffee cup, I realize that it's a dog eat dog time and even someone that you are cool with may end up with your job.
But walking into the building, those good feelings were suck out of me like a vacuum....it's like a morgue around here. Co-workers are looking and greeting at each other with whispers of, "Who do you think is going to get laid off? or "Do you think it will be you?", instead of saying "Good morning, how is your morning?" or "Let's go for coffee"......
People rushing around like ants, working harder and more diligently than I had ever seen before. Is this a illusion to appear that "I am needed?", to appear to have too much work, and your so busy, so you won't be on the chopping block. No one is asking for help with their workload. It may appear that you can't do your job. People are working late and coming in on the weekends now, when 6 months ago, you couldn't say "Please stay late or come in this weekend", without getting a dirty look or a grumble.
The relaxed atomsphere here has been replaced with stress and tension, so thick, that you can cut it with a knife. Jan 30 is the vote on what schools will be closed and by Feb 4th, all central departments managers will inform those employees to be laid off, they are without a job.
This morning, while walking to the cafeteria, I started thinking about the a Seattletimes newspaper headline from last week....."UNEMPLOYMENT JUMPS" in big, black bold letters ran across the top of the page. Just those two words sends "fear" through at the building. People that always have a smile on their faces, are now walking around with frown lines and using "grunts" for "hellos"......Filling up my coffee cup, I realize that it's a dog eat dog time and even someone that you are cool with may end up with your job.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Opening and Shutting Doors of my life
When I think of decisions in my life, I think of them as "doors".... Doors that can lead me down certain paths that map out my life, the way I handle situations and how I learn from different experiences. In my mind, I am standing looking down at my future, and there are lines and lines of different "doors". Little doors, big doors, tall doors, short doors....Just miles and miles of doors. Some attractive, some ugly, some appealing, some leaving a air of "curiosity" and there are some that leaves an air of "uncertainty". That's how lifes decisions are.....a choice to open a door.
When I turn around and look at my past, and at the doors that I have opened, I realize that those doors or "decisions" have formed who I am now. I chose to open those particular doors. There times when I knew what was behind a door and there were times that I did not.
Sometimes opening and closing doors of my life has been easy, but other times they have not. I know that I have reopen and close the same door over and over and over. This door held wonderment, fun, excitement, but it also held pain, hurt and uncertainity.
I feel that fears drove me to continue opening this "wrong door"......The fear of not knowing the outcome of "closing" this door or fear of standing a on firm decision, whether it's wrong or right. I realize that this "fear" has cause me unneccessary and preventative hurt.
It's a "door" that will never be opened again. No matter how inviting, attractive or appealing it may seem, my learning experience is that it's not worth it in the long run.
Sometimes opening and closing doors of my life has been easy, but other times they have not. I know that I have reopen and close the same door over and over and over. This door held wonderment, fun, excitement, but it also held pain, hurt and uncertainity.
I feel that fears drove me to continue opening this "wrong door"......The fear of not knowing the outcome of "closing" this door or fear of standing a on firm decision, whether it's wrong or right. I realize that this "fear" has cause me unneccessary and preventative hurt.
It's a "door" that will never be opened again. No matter how inviting, attractive or appealing it may seem, my learning experience is that it's not worth it in the long run.
Friday, January 23, 2009
FRIDAY, FRIDAY....TGIF!!!!!
This week has been a very emotionally charged week, with the swearing in of our New President, on going issues in the office and co-workers emotions running high.....I can so that I am extremely thankful that the weekend is here. I plan to SLEEP in and just be a couch potato !!!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Home Buying ~ Part I
It's time for me to serious looking into home buying. After renting for years, I now know what I do and DON'T want in a home.
Realizing that I am more partical to a townhoue vs. a house came from renting a house for the past 2 years. The maintenance of a house is alot more stressful than I really want to take on.
I think being honest about that , will a difference for me of what I will buy. As much as I want to get on the internet and browse all the wonderful possiblities of townhomes, I need to set a structured to do list.
My first steps is to create a debt log and enter all my debt that I have. Then I need to see my FICA score. I have been alittle worried about this, as I have filed bankruptcy over a year ago. I have contact Wells Fargo tp see what I can get preapproved for. That will give me a foundation to work from.
My next step will be creating a WANT/NEED list for what I would like in my home. I think it's important to decipher a "want" and a "need"....I know me....I will see some thing I like and will go into without seeing "everything" I need to.
Once I get the list and log going, then I can venture the next steps I need to do. I am hoping that I will be a home owner in the next 12-18 months.
Taking this step has been encouraged by a co-worker and my own desire to have a place of my own.
Realizing that I am more partical to a townhoue vs. a house came from renting a house for the past 2 years. The maintenance of a house is alot more stressful than I really want to take on.
I think being honest about that , will a difference for me of what I will buy. As much as I want to get on the internet and browse all the wonderful possiblities of townhomes, I need to set a structured to do list.
My first steps is to create a debt log and enter all my debt that I have. Then I need to see my FICA score. I have been alittle worried about this, as I have filed bankruptcy over a year ago. I have contact Wells Fargo tp see what I can get preapproved for. That will give me a foundation to work from.
My next step will be creating a WANT/NEED list for what I would like in my home. I think it's important to decipher a "want" and a "need"....I know me....I will see some thing I like and will go into without seeing "everything" I need to.
Once I get the list and log going, then I can venture the next steps I need to do. I am hoping that I will be a home owner in the next 12-18 months.
Taking this step has been encouraged by a co-worker and my own desire to have a place of my own.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
What's important!
With the woes of the flagging economy, threats of cut backs in positions and working under stressful conditions......sometimes one loses sight of what's really important:
- GOD - to be able to talk to HIM, pray to HIM, having faith in HIM and knowing that this all too shall pass
- Family - My grandparents, my parents, my kids, my sisters, my nephews and my niece, my cousins, my aunts and uncles
- To have a job, even when the possibility is that you can lose one
- Good Health - To be able to get up in the morning and come to my job
- The ability to make my own decisions - Have a sound and STABLE mind
- A home - to be able to have a roof over my head and my children's heads
- People that I can truly trust - to call them when I need them and not have anyone of them turn me away!
Things could be much worse and I am humble in realizing that.
Frustrated, Angry, Tired and Emotional
These emotions explain my current mood today. The stress of this job and having a two-faced boss got the better of me and I ended up breaking down at my desk. I was asked by three different people "What's wrong?".....As embarrassed as I was to have them see me in tears, I couldn't stop the flow of them.
I have never worked with anyone so hypocritical, fake and two faced in my life. I have let her get under my skin and she is like a festering thorn. No matter what kind of approach I am trying to take with her, she finds a way to aggravate me and I let it happen. Because I don't know how to deal with someone like her, I feel like I have failed, which is CRAZY!! But, oh, well.
Right now, I feel as if I have been kicked aside like I don't measure up. I know this is far from the truth. My days are numbered, as I do feel that I will be on the cutting block to lose my job.
I have never worked with anyone so hypocritical, fake and two faced in my life. I have let her get under my skin and she is like a festering thorn. No matter what kind of approach I am trying to take with her, she finds a way to aggravate me and I let it happen. Because I don't know how to deal with someone like her, I feel like I have failed, which is CRAZY!! But, oh, well.
Right now, I feel as if I have been kicked aside like I don't measure up. I know this is far from the truth. My days are numbered, as I do feel that I will be on the cutting block to lose my job.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Inauguration of President Barack Hussein Obama
Rosa sat,
So Martin could walk.
Martin walked,
So Obama could run.
Obama ran,
So our children can fly.
So Martin could walk.
Martin walked,
So Obama could run.
Obama ran,
So our children can fly.
On January 20, 2009 ~ BARACK HUSSEIN OBAMA became the 44th and FIRST black President of the United States of America!!! Change has HAPPENED and history has been made!!!
I actually had type this BEAUTIFUL recount of the Inauguration this morning and lost the WHOLE blog! (grrrrrrrr...) Today was one of the most profound and moving day of my life. Besides the birth of my children, to see Obama sworn into office,...nothing compared to the sense of JOY I felt. During the ceremony, I had tears of every happy emotion I could feel running down my face.
OBAMA!!! This one name has generated the excitement of a nation!!!! The excitement of the PEOPLE......White, Black, Hispanic and Asian Amercians as a whole!!! A flurry of text and emails messages have inundated the internet freeway. The buzz of my collegues conversations, whether talking or whispering...."Did you see the inaugurations...."We have made history"....."Isn't this wonderful"......those dialogues has sent the tones of wonderment through the air.
This picture of this little Kenya girl, shows how far Obama's dreams and hopes for a nation has reached!!! It's more of a affirmation that his man carry's the weight of us ALL on his shoulders!! He is the present and she is the future.......
Friday, January 16, 2009
TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Break out the appletinis and music!! This day is half over!!! This whole week has been extremely stressful and LONG! I am looking forward to this 3 day weekend to do nothing but relax and re-energizing my mind and soul.
No real big plans, other than some over due house cleaning and laundry. I am going to make a commitment to myself to get my house looking the way I want it to look. This is the therapeutic for me. Putting energy into having my home look nice. I always have these wonderful decor ideas and even go has far as printing the stuff off, but I never move from there....The ideas just get pushed aside.
But I have to remember to reward myself and keep my ideas in the front part of my mind.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Pearls for our First Lady Michelle Obama
The Wall of Frustrations
Well, yesterday I really hit a wall. I let my boss get under my skin and I lost my professionalism. I went home with that heaviness all over me. I had a hard time sleeping and when I woke this morning, I knew that I would have to face the music. While it was very much warranted, I should have held myself much better. I let her own unprofessional ways effect me.
Even as we walked into a conference room to sit down to "chat", I sensed this air of arrogrance from her. It was unprofessional for my outburst, but she is one of the worst bosses I have ever had. She doesn't trust her staff, she thinks she has to fix every single thing that we do, she acts has if she has to speak for us, comment for us....etc.
After our meeting, I realize that she and I are NOT a good fit. I don't care how or from what angle I look at it......we are oil and water. And it's not going to change. So, with this knowledge, I know that I put myself in jeopardy to lose my job. **Sigh**, the America workforce is so unstable, it worries me about my professional future.
Today has been a very quiet and pondering day for me...
Even as we walked into a conference room to sit down to "chat", I sensed this air of arrogrance from her. It was unprofessional for my outburst, but she is one of the worst bosses I have ever had. She doesn't trust her staff, she thinks she has to fix every single thing that we do, she acts has if she has to speak for us, comment for us....etc.
After our meeting, I realize that she and I are NOT a good fit. I don't care how or from what angle I look at it......we are oil and water. And it's not going to change. So, with this knowledge, I know that I put myself in jeopardy to lose my job. **Sigh**, the America workforce is so unstable, it worries me about my professional future.
Today has been a very quiet and pondering day for me...
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
My new online blogging journal
I think I have finally found a place to journal without worry of "opinions".....Not that I really care, but I just wanted to find a place to journal, express whatever is in my little heart.....So, I am making a committment to blog each day, whether once, twice or several times a day, but at least something enter for each day. This will give me a opportunity to look back and see where I was at.
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