Today's State of Mind

**sigh** The past few days have been so stressful for me. I even broke out in hives for the first time in my life. I had to take a moment last night and reflect on some things. Knowing that my relocation is on the horizon, I am not finding solstice in things right now.

My job is stressful.......and I am thankful that I have one, but I am feeling stagnant here and it's not a good thing for me. I like evolving professionally and watch the success of my organization.....but I am in an organization that has been really LOST for some years. Now that we have a new kind of Senior leadership,, who is prompting change and a different way of handling things, I have sat back and watched long timers cause so much grief and resistance.

There is SO much negagivity rolling around here, I have to literally talk tell myself each morning, before I get out my truck, "Draw your shoulders back, walk in and do you job".....but that is the thing, I can't do my job, because I am dealing with two control freak bosses and it's so frustrating to the 25th power for me!!!

So, I asked myself.."Teresa, what are you going to do? Whine about it? Vent all the time about it? And the only answer I can up with is "Deal with it for a few more months......I know that I will need to stay in place. I am just wondering on different things I need to do to endure the rest of my time here......**sigh** So, I am where I am and I have to just wander down this bumpy road until I can forge another path for my future........

The bottom line for me is that I am restless and ready to move on from Seattle. I am just not feeling it here anymore.......of course I have to wait and patience is NOT my best trait. I don't want to be come impulsive and just jump up. I have to tie up loose ends here.....

I have to stay positive, stay focused and keep it moving....my time here is a very short one.

Sickness in the work place VENT!!

Why is that some people who get sick INSIST on coming to work? I have a co-worker, who came down with the FLU, still trying to be some martyr and come to work!!! This had quite a few of us very upset. Especially when we have this Swine Flu pandemic going on.....

But knowing this particular co-worker....she did it for ATTENTION!!! It's ridiculous that someone her age is still so needy...Ugh!!!

Daily Quote ~ So right on time for my life RIGHT NOW!!

It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.

~Alan Cohen