A senseless loss of a wondeful life ~ My letter to Wes

My handsome cousin Wesley,

I know that you have left us for something better....but how do we get past the empty hole that is left here our hearts? A place that you occuppied? I have been trying to understand "why"? Why were you taken from us when you were doing so good. I visited you on your website and I noticed that your hair grew out......I remember you use to wear your hair like that when you were a kid. This picture of you praying and crying out....it's touchs my heart and soul. Because I could really see how GOD had touch your life and deepened your spirtual life.

It's not fair that you were taken from us so early. SO unfair. I will never get to see that winning smile of yours again......you know the one, that lit up your face, that could have the ladies swooning at you......the one that made all of us hug you a little tighter when we seen you. I dreamt about you last night......you were just running on a football field....with a football in your hand....we were standing on the sidelines cheer and yelling, the way us Rainwater's do.....as you ran past us, you stopped, looked at us, flashed that smile and continued running to the to the end zone. This end zone was lit up and shining.........as we watched, you were running fast and fast, then you were in the air...floating towards the end zone.....and we could here you say "Family, don't cry and don't hurt....I'm alright...I am free"



I remember waking up and my face was wet. Was that your way of tell me/that you are okay? I laid there in the dark....thinking about every memory I could of you. Your time was soo short with us, but you made such a impact on our lives......

What are you going to do without you here? I promised myself that I would be happy about the change in your life and I am, but I wish we could have shared in it together as the family we are....not after you are gone forever from us. Please check in on Chris for time to time....he is feeling so lost without you. Give him peace of mind and let him know that "Dude, it's cool"...and hug him.

I love you, Wesley and I will miss you so much.