**sigh** The past few days have been so stressful for me. I even broke out in hives for the first time in my life. I had to take a moment last night and reflect on some things. Knowing that my relocation is on the horizon, I am not finding solstice in things right now.
My job is stressful.......and I am thankful that I have one, but I am feeling stagnant here and it's not a good thing for me. I like evolving professionally and watch the success of my organization.....but I am in an organization that has been really LOST for some years. Now that we have a new kind of Senior leadership,, who is prompting change and a different way of handling things, I have sat back and watched long timers cause so much grief and resistance.
There is SO much negagivity rolling around here, I have to literally talk tell myself each morning, before I get out my truck, "Draw your shoulders back, walk in and do you job".....but that is the thing, I can't do my job, because I am dealing with two control freak bosses and it's so frustrating to the 25th power for me!!!
So, I asked myself.."Teresa, what are you going to do? Whine about it? Vent all the time about it? And the only answer I can up with is "Deal with it for a few more months......I know that I will need to stay in place. I am just wondering on different things I need to do to endure the rest of my time here......**sigh** So, I am where I am and I have to just wander down this bumpy road until I can forge another path for my future........
The bottom line for me is that I am restless and ready to move on from Seattle. I am just not feeling it here anymore.......of course I have to wait and patience is NOT my best trait. I don't want to be come impulsive and just jump up. I have to tie up loose ends here.....
I have to stay positive, stay focused and keep it moving....my time here is a very short one.
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