Opening and Shutting Doors of my life

When I think of decisions in my life, I think of them as "doors".... Doors that can lead me down certain paths that map out my life, the way I handle situations and how I learn from different experiences. In my mind, I am standing looking down at my future, and there are lines and lines of different "doors". Little doors, big doors, tall doors, short doors....Just miles and miles of doors. Some attractive, some ugly, some appealing, some leaving a air of "curiosity" and there are some that leaves an air of "uncertainty". That's how lifes decisions are.....a choice to open a door.

When I turn around and look at my past, and at the doors that I have opened, I realize that those doors or "decisions" have formed who I am now. I chose to open those particular doors. There times when I knew what was behind a door and there were times that I did not.

Sometimes opening and closing doors of my life has been easy, but other times they have not. I know that I have reopen and close the same door over and over and over. This door held wonderment, fun, excitement, but it also held pain, hurt and uncertainity.

I feel that fears drove me to continue opening this "wrong door"......The fear of not knowing the outcome of "closing" this door or fear of standing a on firm decision, whether it's wrong or right. I realize that this "fear" has cause me unneccessary and preventative hurt.

It's a "door" that will never be opened again. No matter how inviting, attractive or appealing it may seem, my learning experience is that it's not worth it in the long run.